Well, this week has SUCKED!!
Specifically this weekend, alcohol has been my friend this weekend.
So mr.makesmesmile…….he’s gone…..
He’s gone to be a dad, Jesus…no matter how many times I say it it still sounds unfathomable.
I had to “bolt” (inside thing) because he’s told me how he wants a family and to be a dad and now he gets to…….so where does that leave me??
That’s where it leaves me
Totally and completely numb
And the only person I want to talk to about it with is the one person I can’t talk to.
You just had to run me over with a bulldozer???
The worst part is we still both have strong feelings for one another, how do you deal with that? Seriously, anyone who knows please tell me.
It all feels like a bad dream.
The situation has ironically invaded my dreams…..so I can’t escape it
Music, alcohol, and cookies are my only comfort at the moment
Help may be needed soon…..